25 oct is our 10mths tgt.. i guess he haf forgotten.. i ask if he haf any tin to tell mi.. he said ILU.. i say its nt tt... its or 10mths tgt don u rmb?? he answered in a v irritated tone.. "darling ar.. i've so much tins in my mind~!" fine... he always wanted to b wif his frens..i ask his frens along for movie.. the coffin! aft watching e movie i was so afraid to slp alone.. so i ask him if he could acc mi.. he said orh.. but i cn see frm his face tt his unwilling to.. fine.. i said nvm.. he said tml he will acc den.. ok.. e nxt day.. ard 9plus.. he told mi tt mark invited us to his place tgt wif e other lancer club of frens.. i rejected! firstly, he didnt noe tt tml im working morning shift! and mark's place is at bukit batok o timah.. wateva it is.. its v far.. secondly,tt tym wen we quarrel.. he said tt he haf to send mi hm early as my mom don allow mi to go hm late as he's v unhappy cux his frens is enjoying n he haf to send mi hm! haix..i always said tt i need him bt he wasnt by my side... and he ask mi to let him noe if i nd him..if nt he wont noe..i told him... is there any diff?? did he came to acc mi over e night?? he told mi tt tml he will acc mi.. did he?? don go overboard.. i've allow alot of tins beyond my limit..haix.. will he understd?? wateva gf say..bf wont listen de.. they will onli listen to they frens.. i've alrdy throw my pride dwn.. wat else u wan mi to do?? we quarrel i msg u.. called u..u switch off ur fond by saying ur sim card is spolit?? so qiao mehx?? wen i say i need a talk.. wher r u? on e way to his place to enjoy? wat abt mi? crying alone while u're enjoying??tats so silly of mi! wen cn we reali talk face to face abt out probs.. donn run away frm probs if nt we'll b foreva qarreling abt e same issue~! always ask mi t give him time.. give him time.. will u get back to mi?? dar ar.. u're e onli guy i did so so so much...wateva u wan i'll try to get fer u.. try to satisfied u..get u little tins to cheer ur tired n bzy day..but i jus don feel e importance frm u and wanna get back to e sweet meomories we had tgt..is tt so diff??sobx!! i cant slp e whole night.. i asked if u still love mi n wanna get back to e happy times.. u ask mi to give u more time u wanna seek fer help.. cant deal wif tins nw?? WTF??!!! its btw us?? n if u reali don love mi anymore..lets nt waste our time tgt..i'll surely let go~! i will...




说好的幸福呢歌词你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.

情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.

时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了倦了我哭了.

一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的懂了.


怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐


你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.

情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.

时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.

一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的懂了.


怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐


怎麽了.
你累了.
说好的.
幸福呐.
我懂了.
不说了.
爱淡了.
梦淹了.
我都还记得.

你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐 !

-FRIDAY-

dardar went to meet his frens at WEST COAST carpark~!(chit chat) i didnt wan to go aft our last quarrel...he said tt i knt stay out late.. den haf to send mi home early.. as if its my fault!!mummy don allow ma.. wat cn i do?? anyway, he's gg to west coast big big carpark jus to chat wif a bunch of frens abt car stuff.. wat cn i do there?? i don even noe abt cars?? diao diao lo~!! so aft work went to meet yan kai.. we went coffee bean talking abt his n my prob.. haix.. too mani prob le.. v fan ar...~ aft tt, took cab hm.. wasnt feeling v good cux i took coffee!! haas.. anyway, my dear frens in case u all dunno..i kena tk coffee..i oso dunno y.. will feel v uncomfortable..feel lyk vomitting..*hate tt feeling** so went staight fer bed aft bathe..ard 3plus i heard my fond vibrating.. i saw dardar gave mi 9 missed call n 1 msg!! 1st time he gave mi so mani miss call... **called him back** guess he wasnt v happy cux i didnt call him wen i reach hm.. he ask mi wher did i went i jus said tampines.. but he wan mi to tell him e extact place i went..so, he was even more pissed~!! he don lyk mi gg out 1 to 1 wid a guy.. i did tt is bcux all my gf's haf to acc they're bf.. some r even workin.. n i so bloody fan lo.. dardar went to meet his frens.. den i oso go meet my frens since yan kai msg mi at e point of tym..i wasnt happy aft e last quarrel wid him so i need someone to talk to.. so do he?(yan kai).. he jus broke up wid e gf.. still deciding if wanna patch up wid her...fan ar!! hen fan ar~!!


-SATURDAY-

msg-ed dardar said i've reach workplace le.. but he didnt reply o even call mi.. so im so angry n sad~!!arghh~!!i didnt wan to call him since i alrdy msg him......*mayb his bzy..mab he's angry??* but its alrdy midnight he still didnt call mi e whole fucking day.. *PISSED* y must i always always make de 1st move lei?? don wan don wan.. arghh.. **CRIED**



-SUNDAY-

i msg him in e morning **don come in n out of my life.. get ot if u wan to** he still don wanna reply mi.. (>.<) i called him.. he didnt wan to pick up.. **don care** call till he pick up.. hfpmm..~ aft awhile he pick up.. n we had a "giantantic" argument~!! **SOBX** he say we need to cool dwn~!! aft work went pub~!!! arghh.. i didnt wan to.. but aft e last quarrel.. i've been gg to pub v occastionly.. keep drinkin n smking.. arghh~!!! i noe tt's v silly.. but i jus cant help it.. i need to go out..so tt i wont call o msg him..! went back hm wif a 1/4 left of chivas bottle in my bag.. **THANK TO MY LIL IVY** **THANK TO SHEARES FOR E LIFT HM TOO** ^^


-MONDAY-

my off day..**having terrible sorethroat n cough** i drank quite alot ytd but i cant slp well e whole night.. i woke up but i keep forcing myself to slp.. lie on my bed till 1plus.. finally i get off my bed.. but aft wash up..i didnt noe wat to do.. so i ended up on my mom's bed...!lolx..i felt so helpless~!! i msg him *im really sorry** silly mi.. always giving in.. i oso dunno y.. haix.. he msged mi.. saying meet fer supper o late night movie later.. i didnt reply.. he called mi..i said anytin..im still v v sad.. but i've e mood to clean my rm and help my dog to bathe.. haas.. ard 6 plus.. evonne called mi.. ask mi to acc her to bugis ard 7pm to get sum stuff cux she gg back to malaysia soon.. ard 8pls he say he wanna pick mi up.. so soon?? i told him tt von still haven get her tings done..! he want mi to help him stick his car..i said orh.. he said if don wan jus tell mi.. kaox!! im having sorethroat n cought lei~!!! arghh.. think he knt tahan le.. so he start to do by himself.. i called him ard 9plus.. he still sticking.. so, i told him tt im gg back hm myself.. but he wan mi to cab to his hse carpark to help him out... OKAY~! i went to e taxi stand.. its FULL of ppl Q-ing.. (u noe bugis?? taxi stand is always filled** i went opps(bugis v)board a cab wif NO AIRCON PLUS $3.30 extra charge..nvm~ he uncle dunno wher e fuck is puggol field~!! **get ot of e cab straight** so i walked till arab street.. no cabs wanna stop... arghh.. 10plus le worr.. freaking impaient!!! **TAHAN TAHAN** wen i was on e way walking back to bugis..no choice..have to join e fucking Q!!!haix... on e way ii....i saw cab!! sumone is alighting~!! YAHOO~!! board e cab to dar's place! FINALLY~~~!!!!! nice taxi uncle... he keep hearing mi coughin.. offer mi SWEETS!!! hao hao uncle.. *^^* aft i reach e carpark.. his whole bonnet is covered wif black carbon fibre sticker!! which cost $100over fer tt sticker!!!! **FAINT** he ruin e sticker. cux its too big fer 1 person to cover tt bonnet le..haix.. wasted.. wen to his place.. he go bathe.. i watch tv.. aft tt.. go hm!! he ask mi to eat.. i say i don wan.. was coughin.. throat bloody pain! don feel lyk eating.. ask him go eat.. he say e don feel lyk...reach my hse.. i bathe he use psp.. i use com he still using psp.. i switch off e com.. he say nt watch movie?? arghh~!! v tired ar~!


he ask mi if im happy wif him - *speechless*
i jus ask evonne if i still loves him.. mi myself.. dunno~! i've mixed feeling aft tt big quarrel n "giantantic" argument.. haix.. he said lots of tins tt i felt tt im a hopeless gf..individual side always has its own reason.. haix.. hwever i've change to b a beta n understanding gf.. he doesnt realise it.. he keep digging our history out to say mi..even though i didnt do it nw alrdy! haix...and he only gives mi a chance to perform.. once i didnt perform well fer tis prob.. e REST of e problems he wont share wid mi le..kaox.. is tis fair to mi??? **tien li he jai ar!!**


*will b posting out pictures as soon as i uploaded to my com.. SORRY!

What Peifen Means

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Fri - went drink wif yan kai, his fren ivan and ivy *^^*

we went kampong baru "2dawn pub" after finish our chivas.. we went boat quay fer beers!! till 6am ar~!!! aft tt sent yan kai back hm.. look below~ he's drunk lo.. but he keep saying he's ok ok.. lolx.. mr. okok.. rofl~! he lives at blk 4x4 tampines st 4x #o6-xxx singapore 5204x4. see~ i can still rmb.. lolx! kena suan until v jialat...haas.. and ivy stay over at my hse =)

Sat - went bugis fer pedicure wid ivy.. **lurbbs**

aft pedicure, we went vivo to meet yan kai n keegan fer dinner **Dian Xiao Er**

aft dinner, we went st james! celebrate yan kai's 24th birthday... its my 1st tym to mono!! its freaking cool ar~ must go!! he book a room wif a giant bottle of hennessy and it cost more than $500 but less than $1k... *GOSH* n the cost include 2 membership of st james!! he took 1.. n he gave mi 1~!!! LOVES* alot alot of ppl came..guess tt night got ard 30 over ppl ba.. heex.. tt night was FUN! i threw cakes on yan kai's face! we went dancing..drinkin..smking etc~ damn damn cool!!! but e emo part is.... my ex-stead came.. =( wid his current gf too.. haix...

** bu zai wu tian chang de jiu, zhi zai wu chen jin yong you gou**

Mon - went kampong baru again!! wid yan kai,keegan,dom,gao eh n e wife ^^ we drank chivas! still nt enough...aft tt went boat quay **raining bar** drank martell and beer! gosh.. **faint** went hm "early" again... =X

Tues - and tts tdy~! came woodlands to find dardar ^^ help him up wif his work den blog! haas.. mayb gg SGH later.. cux my dear fren called mi up ytd saying tt her mom jus admitted in d hospital.. wanna mi go see her.. but nt v nice gg wid alcohol smell and its already mid-night so didnt went.. mayb ltr gg ba *^^* hope everytin is fine.. god bless~!

别让爱你的人受伤..如果你不爱一个人,请放手, 好让别人有机会爱他/她...如果你爱的人放弃你,请你放开自己,好让自己有机会爱别人...有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,有些东西你再留恋也注定要放弃..人生中有许多种爱,但别让爱成为一种伤害...有些缘分是注定要失去的,有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,爱一个人不一定要拥有,但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他/她...男人哭了,是因为他真的爱了...女人哭了,是因为她真的放弃了...如果真诚是一种伤害,我选择谎言;如果谎言是一种伤害,我选择沉默;如果沉默是一种伤害,我选择离开...如果失去是苦,你怕不怕付出?如果迷乱是苦,你会不会选择结束?如果追求是苦,你会不会选择执迷不悟?如果分离是苦,你要向谁倾诉?很多事情都是后来才看清楚,很多事情当时一点也不觉的苦,然而我已经找不到来时的路...有一种爱,明明是深爱,却说不出来..有一种爱,明明想放弃,却无法放弃..有一种爱,明明是煎熬,却又躲不开..有一种爱,明知无前路,心却早已收不回来..什么是勇气?是哭着要你回来,要你再爱我..还是哭着看你离开..在未可预知的重逢,我们以为总会重逢..总会有缘再会..总会有机会说一声对不起..却没想过每次挥手道别,都可能是决别,每一声叹息,都可能是人间最后的一声叹息..



*P.S: even if u dunno hw to read.. pls ask ur frens to translate it to u..its v meaningful *^^*

big big QUARREL wid dardar... sobx.. cried non-stop fer 7hours!! seriously non-stop~! he got so so many unhappiness abt mi... and in e other side he didnt see tt im trying.. **speechless**



thks dear....! u guys will b always there fer mi wen i need u.. **MUACKIES** loves..
lin ying: just tink of the good times
lin ying: it'll cover the quarrels
lin ying: forgive and try cover it with love?
ivy: on her way coming to my hse..
mummy: jus bought mi dinner.. ][all e food are tasteless to mi nw][
yan kai: waiting fer mi to go drink..


*P.S : i miss the times we spend tgt last time..wen we were together.. together..together...

my dearest jing ying jus sent mi these pictures tt we took ard feb o march fer "SUB's" renioun dinner at furama hotel.. ^^

met michelle, wei long, christopher n his fren... *^^*

see tis noti gal pass mi cigarette~!! we waited fer him for hours!!
my dearest gan di came to pass mi stuff.. treated him tepanyaki for lunch.. yummy~!
AND he bought mi chocolates! my lurbbs~!!!

personality

I found this test. Try it. very interesting n true.

Your personality?

Identify yourself as right or left brain person:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying.Look at your hands.

Left thumb below the right thumb: left brain
Right thumb below the left thumb: right brain

2. Fold your arms in front of you as if you are angry.Look at your hands.

Right arm above left arm: left brain
Left arm above right arm: right brain

Based on 1 and 2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:

Right-Left: Considerate, traditional, indirect type. Can instinctively read other’s emotion and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking initiatives in moving forward, this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, gives others a ‘being protected’ feeling. But their weakness is they cannot say no. Regardless how unwilling they are, they will still take care of others.

Right-Right: Straightforward. Once decided on something, they will take action right away. Very curious and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they don’t listen to others. They will filter in only what they want to hear in a conversation and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left: Dedicated, cold, perfectionist. Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat(or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of pride and feels strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponents, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very “anal” as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right: Likes to take care of others, the leader type. Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool, calm nature and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

I’m a Left-Right. What’s yours?

went AMK HUB wid dardar ytd... heex... ^^ aft dinner ivan msg mi.. ask mi go dbl o.. but i'm wearing a dress n slipper!! OMG~ actually don wanna go de.. but i oways reject him.. =X haas.. so decided to go la..

ivan went to fetch mi there.. BUT i couldnt enter wif my damn bloody slipper! arghh.. its lyk a joke out of it~... but tt was v last min tin... sobx...my oth clubbing kaki shanon said tt she enter wif flip flop b4 lo.. nvm... aft tt joses n ivan acc mi to get a proper footwear.. half way e journal HEAVY RAIN!! sorry to moi two poor dears... =(

aft shanon reach there.. she went in wid ivan.. and ivan got mi a shoe wen he came out.. haas.. tts shanon's shoe.. so, she was bared footed inside the club...

**SO TOUCH** thanks guys!!! this are frens! they will held u wif their warmest hand wen u need ^^*





**heavy rain**

** stephanie n tiffany **



went yishun wif dardar n frens fer dinner.. look at e crowd! we waited fer 1hour! **HUNGRY**